| holy crap... whered i go? |
[Dec. 17th, 2006|04:54 pm] |
Well.. it seems its been about eight months since my last entry... and nothing has changed. my life is still a boring as ever but there is one good thing: IM GRADUATING SOON. That means college for me.
Okay... so i exageratted a LITTLE bit about my life not changing. Here's the low down:
Over the summer i started dealing with some uber-stressful family health issues (still going on and just as not fun as they were then).
My college search is over. Im going to Lynchburg College down in the southern part of Virginia. yay!!!
My art has become significantly better under the direction of Sham if even for only a few months so far.
If you want to check me out a little more: elessar135.deviatart.com
Ive had one relationship since then and it didnt last very long.
Overall? I'm still a single hermit who does ntohing but art stuff, video games (here and there anymore...), homework, and well... thats pretty much it. If i go out, its still once in a blue moon. |
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| hmmm.. Damian gave me the idea |
[Jun. 5th, 2005|09:08 pm] |
| [ | jammin' to? |
| | Thoughts Without Words - Shadows Fall | ] |
Part Passionate Kisser |
For you, kissing is about all about following your urges
If someone's hot, you'll go in for the kiss - end of story
You can keep any relationship hot with your steamy kisses
A total spark plug - your kisses are bound to get you in trouble | Part Romantic Kisser |
For you, kissing is all about feeling the romance
You love to kiss under the stars or by the sea
The perfect kiss involves the perfect mood
It's pretty common for kisses to sweep you off your feet |
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| been gone for a while... now im back... maybe not |
[Jan. 22nd, 2005|06:31 pm] |
| [ | feelings? |
| |  *rasberries* ::runs away:: | ] |
| [ | jammin' to? |
| | Little Devotional - TBS | ] |
Well, I haven't updated for some time so, well, here I am! This damned snow has had me locked up in my house all day... very dull if you ask me. Though, being the art geek I am, I enjoy watching the snow blanketing the earth. The cool white glistening among the soft greens and browns, it makes everything seem so... together; peaceful... the snow hides the corruption and blackness of the truth of the world, if but for a time.
Jackie is turning fifteen today... happy birthday, girl! have a fun fifteeth!
Which makes me think... Im gonna be sixteen in a few months... whoa... I cant wait to drive, so many of my problems will be solved, but even then, I need to buy a car first, which means I'll have to have money, which also means I need a job... I hope to have one by the summer. People laugh at me because I want to work at the local Barnes & Noble, but I like the enviroment there, even if Id be nothing more than a stock boy. Ill push also for jobs at the Game Stop and EB Games at the mall, good way to go seeing as I want to go into the game industry as a career.
Video games were my first love. Ive grown up around them. I had an NES (the original for those who dont know) from when i was very little. Then for Christmas when I was seven, we bought an N64, I fell in love with that too. This led me to become a diehard Nintendo fan, evidenced by my decision to buy a GameCube over a PS2. Oh well. I am a gamer. I am an artist. I will be a game artist with a passion for what I do. w00t to planning (just hope and pray these intricate plans dont fall through...)
WHOA!!! I believe this is the first entry Ive made that doesnt state how bad I think my life is! Maybe this is a good sign? Hmm.... I hope so! Anyways, Ive updated for you peeps who have nothing better to do than read my crap. |
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| what a day.... |
[Dec. 12th, 2004|05:18 pm] |
| [ | feelings? |
| |  numb | ] |
| [ | jammin' to? |
| | random song bits playing in my head... | ] |
Well, the La Salle invitational was yesterday and I took fourth in novice LD. I got to spend time with Jackie but I knew I was going to have to come back here, to my house, once again. My day today has really sucked. I got yet another opportunity to sit in my house and do absolutely nothing productive socially. I am beginning to get used to this unholy seclusion from society... no I'm not. I never will. My parents will eternally try to keep me away from Jackie in order to 'protect from greater pains down the road' but in their attempt to save me from pain, they have only hurt me worse. The pain I feel from seclusion is more than any I can imagine, maybe not physically, but emotioanlly. If anyone could truly understand how I feel about Jackie, they wouldn't really try to keep me from her.
I guess seeing as December is about halfway gone, I should try and come up with a New Year's resolution or two.
1. Try and come up with a way to tell Jackie how I truly feel for her.
2. Tell Jackie how I feel about her after I've fried my brain putting unspeakable emotions into words. |
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| yup, stilll a D&D geek :) |
[Dec. 10th, 2004|06:44 pm] |
| [ | jammin' to? |
| | Foundations of Stone - Howard Shore (LotR soundtrack) | ] |
You're an Evoker! Evocation is the school of creating and
manipulating Energy. It is used to create Fire,
Lighting, or shapes of force. Evokers tend to
be forceful and headstrong. Problems are
usually resolved on the first try. You have
been guilty of excessive force more than once.
Evokers call forth the most devastating spells
of all. Powerful and determined you are a true
force of nature when unleashed.
What D&D School of magic are you?
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| yup, I'm a D&D freak... |
[Dec. 10th, 2004|05:56 pm] |
You are a Rebel, Chaotic Good.
Chaotic good characters works towards good in their
own ways, without regard for the expectations
of others or the rigid guidelines of society
(imposed by church or government). They are
particularly disturbed by those who try to push
people around and intimidate them. They are
less honor-bound than the other good
alignments, particularly in dealing with those
who are not good. They may on occasion lie,
threaten or kill for a good cause (with an evil
person, perhaps). As a general rule, chaotic
good characters do not attack unarmed
opponents, harm the innocent, refuse an honest
appeal for aid, take bribes or betray their
friends. They usually prefer to cut through
red tape. Robin Hood is an example of a
chaotic good character, particularly prior to
the return of King Richard.
What is your d&d alignment?
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| D&D TIME!!! |
[Dec. 10th, 2004|05:32 pm] |
| [ | feelings? |
| |  gloomy | ] |
| [ | jammin' to? |
| | same | ] |
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| quiz time yet again! |
[Dec. 10th, 2004|05:19 pm] |
| [ | feelings? |
| | gloomy | ] |
| [ | jammin' to? |
| | my keyboard's clicky, Tope-like sounds | ] |
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| I'm pretty sure I must have something better to do... |
[Dec. 9th, 2004|07:28 pm] |
| [ | feelings? |
| |  still... | ] |
| [ | jammin' to? |
| | Frontline - Pillar | ] |
I wish I was with Jackie right now. Before we all left Truman from debate practice, Jackie called her aunt to come and pick her up and got some bad news and was not feeling good about it and it is still bothering me. Seeing her like that hurt me so much because I was unable to help her deal with the issue. All I wished it took was for me to embrace her and let her problem thoughts melt away... and then a reality check gave me a few paper cuts... I just wish my parents could lighten up a little bit and actually let me out of the house every once and a while, especially tomorrow for Allie's party, but I know that realistically that will never happen.
I'm sorry for those of you who actually read these rantings of mine. I guess my life sounds like one huge, bad sob story. I apologize. Just ignore me if you really want to. |
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| ...okay... |
[Dec. 9th, 2004|07:21 pm] |
| [ | feelings? |
| | depressed | ] |
| [ | jammin' to? |
| | Phenomenon - Thousand Foot Krutch | ] |
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| a quiz!!! |
[Nov. 18th, 2004|04:54 pm] |
| [ | feelings? |
| |  bored | ] |
| [ | jammin' to? |
| | I'm a Fake - The Used | ] |
What's your name? :: Andrew Jay Baldwin
Birthplace :: a hospital (Levittown)
Age :: 15
Age you act :: 26 or 15 depending on my mood
Current location :: my house (in front of my computer, duh)
Eye color :: hazel
Hair color :: brown
Right, lefty or ambidextrous? :: righty (somewhat ambidextrous)
Zodiac sign? :: taurus (though i don't believe in horoscopes)
Height? :: 6'0"
[x] Part 2 -- Describe... [x]
Your heritage/nationality :: Irish, English, and Native American (maybe a little German)
Your hair :: brown
Your fears :: betrayal and rejection
Your perfect room :: big with medieval weapons ling the walls
What you practically do in a day ::
[x] Part 3 -- What is/are... [x]
Words you overuse :: uber
Phrases you overuse :: can't think of any right now
Your first thought when you wake up :: ugh... I have to get up? Nope... not yet
Your greatest accomplishment :: dont know
Something you want to do :: L.A.R.P. (Live-Action-Role-Playing, I'm a loser)
[x] Part 4 -- This or that [x]
Pepsi or Coke :: Pepsi foo! (they have Mountain Dew)
McDonald's or Burger Kings :: either
Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera :: neither they're both sluts
Chocolate or vanilla :: either
Adidas or Nike :: none (DC or Circa)
Black or white :: people? white in general and some blacks but color? black
Bills or Coins ((Think $$$)) :: bills (but I think we should go back to a coin system)
Burgers or hot dogs :: both (look at me! im fat what did you think I would've said!)
Egypt or France :: Egypt has a much more interesting mythology
Rock or rap :: ROCK!!!!
[x] Part 5 -- Do you...[x]
Smoke :: why waste the money?
Cuss :: sometimes (i tend to bleep myself)
Sing well :: nope never will
Sing in the shower :: no
Talk to yourself --a lot-- :: of course (im a bit crazy)
Believe in yourself :: sometimes but mostly in God
Like taking these longass surveys? :: sometimes
Play an instrument :: i did play alto sax
Want to go to college? :: yup
Want to get married? :: more than likely
Want to have children? :: maybe
Think you're a health freak? :: nope ( im fat c'mon!)
Get along with your parents :: yes
Get along with your siblings? :: of course! (i don't have any)
Think you're popular :: i know i'm not
[x] Part 6 -- In the past month have you..[x]
Gone out of state :: nope
Drank alchohal :: nope
Smoke :: nope never will
Get high :: see above^
Done any drugs :: again, see above^
Eaten an entire box of oreos :: nope
Been on stage :: nope
Gone skinny dipping :: nope
Been dumped :: not really... im in a relationship now
Dyed your hair :: nope
Stolen anything :: no
[x] Part 7 -- Your friends! =D [x]
Craziest :: Scott
Loudest :: Scott
Most shy :: Don't know
Blondest :: Skylar
Smartest :: DJ
Kindest :: Jackie
Best personality :: Jackie (can't help these answers)
Most talented :: not sure
Best singer :: uh... Scott?
Most ghetto :: Ricky (he's the 'blackest' friend i have)
Drama Queen ((or King XP)) :: not sure
Pain in the ass :: George (when he's being an #$%)
The one you just want to strangle to death ((Homer Simpson style)):: not sure
Funniest :: Tope
Best person for advice :: not sure
Dependable :: Brandi and Jackie
Trustworthy :: see above^
Druggie :: none
Most likely to end up in jail :: uh......
Person you've known the longest :: Chris G.
[x] Part 8 -- The Last... [x]
Last dream :: don't recall
Last nightmare :: same as above
Car ride :: to my home
Last time you cried :: cant remember
Last movie seen :: Shrek (im German class)
Last movie rented :: Minority Report
Last book read :: The Legacy of the Drow
Last word said :: okay?
Last curse word said :: dont remember
Last time you laugh :: not to long ago
Last phone call :: uh... my dad
Last CD played :: Fireproof - Pillar
Last song you listened to :: Hindsight - Pillar
Last annoyance :: dont know
Last IM :: george (currently)
Last weird encounter :: dont know maybe when to weird people told me lay down on that bed thing last night...
Last person you hugged :: Jackie
Last person you yelled at :: uh....
Last time you wore a skirt :: ...never...
Last time you've been evil :: don't recall
Sarcastic? :: always
Last time you fought with your parents :: not to long ago
Last time you wished upon a star :: never
Played Truth or Dare :: never
Spent quality time alone :: a while ago
[x] Part 9 -- I swear this is the last one! -- Randomness [x]
Are you talking to someone on AIM :: yup
Do you feel lonely :: of course, Jackie is not beside me
Ever TP'd someone's house :: no
How about egging someone's house :: no
Do you not like dislike not like me? :: uh... yeah sure, whatever...
Ain't Eminem and 50 Cent just fine? :: NO!!!!!!!
Yo Momma :: is my Momma!
Ever been so hungry you felt like you could eat the person next to you? :: not really... I'm not a cannibal
What do you think of George Bush? :: i like him but not everything he does
Any secret fetishes? :: those should be secrets...
Do you like to wear chains? O_o :: no
How many languages do you speak? :: one and a little of a second (German Whoooo!!!)
Damn.. are your fingers tired? Cause mine sure are! :: not really
Glad this is over? ((Say yes and I'll stalk you =P)) :: uh... if your a guy i'll kill you, a girl, i'm taken |
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| ::sigh:: It's a Wonderful Life... |
[Nov. 18th, 2004|03:06 pm] |
| [ | feelings? |
| |  content | ] |
| [ | jammin' to? |
| | Take It Away - The Used | ] |
My life at the moment is just peachy... ok that was really stupid on my part, but still, my life is going great. To an extent. I finally have found someone i can love and the loneliness I've felt for so long melted away. Jackie is a wonderful person. She's kind and affectionate... but the downside to this whole thing is the mocking... I'm being jeered at every time I touch her! OH MY GOD! LOOK AT THAT! ANDREW JUST TOUCHED JACKIE! (when are you going to 'have some fun', eh?) That's mearly a sample of the torture im feeling... My parents are really starting to piss me off because they are entirely against my dating Jackie, but they dont understand what i feel when I'm around her. I feel complete when I'm holing her in my arms and when we're apart, I feel like a zombie. Mearly walking through the day performing mindless activities until the light of my life shines upon my face. I only feel truly alive when we're together. When I hold her in my arms and her head is resting on my chest, she feels like a little girl who's lost in a big, big world but she has come to her safe haven. She's come to her sancuarary. Life is very good... |
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